Sometimes I Wonder

You know, there are a lot of times that I wonder about the plan that God has for my life. It seems as of lately my life has been crumbling right before my eyes. As a response to this I have been suffering; in ways that I just don't understand. I can not find true rest. I am not the same person I once was, and this is not a good thing. I have been stumbling and slipping and I have been on this downward spiral. I just want to feel normal again. I have tried so much to get over this. I feel alone and helpless. I need to spend time with people but ever since I got dumped I just want to stay away from everyone. Many people do not even realize how serious it is. I just want an escape, a vacation away from all of this pain.