Wow....

All I can say is wow....

This summer has been crazy, God is super awesome. He has done some amazing things this summer. Just ask the youth at RHBC; they have experience God at bigger levels this year. Allow me a moment to be honest right quickly. Before taking this job, I had no idea in this world how God could possibly use me at a Baptist church, nothing against them, but if you know me I have stuck to being Pentecostal. That is, until this summer. I took the job saying that I would be committed fully to it. I broke ties with the church that I have called home for the last 5 years, and went to this new church. I never knew how much I would fall in love with it. All of the people are amazing, It is a privilege to be able to call it my church home this summer, and for this next year. I am confident that this is where God has called me to be, and I am Perfectly happy with it. I have no regrets about this change that I have allowed God to do in my life. I have realized that my relationship with Christ requires me to give much more than my flesh would wants me to. I know that to receive more of what he has for me, that I have to give up more and more of myself. I made some tough decisions this summer, one being ending a relationship that my flesh said could last, but my spirit told me that it could not and it had to be ended. I will not sacrifice my relationship with Christ to hold on to something that my flesh wants. I need a partner that will keep God first, and stand beside me, or I will not have one at all. It's that simple. I still have faith that God will provide that right one for me. It hurts, but that's the way it has to be.

I look forward to what God is going to do through me this year at CSU and at RHBC. I know he is going to show up and show out. Who's with me!

Love ya,

Big Ron

There's a Burning

There’s a Burning

Okay,

Before reading this first know this: I have this burden God has placed in my life. To reach a Generation that is lost. Fire is pumping through my veins. With that said, to correctly read and comprehend this poem you must read it with passion. Envision me standing in front of you, and reading it with a fire, kinda like I am in preaching mode. Thanks and God Bless,

Big Ron

Desire,

Passion,

Adrenaline.

These are pumping through my veins.

There is a burning

Unlike any other I have felt before.

A burning for this generation,

The time is coming.

There is a burning.

The time for resting is no more.

Desire,

Passion,

Adrenaline.

Flowing through these veins.

The time of halfing it is no more.

Because God has given me an open door.

Let his Spirit flow

And let it reside

Inside this body of mine.

There is a burning

And with that, my soul is yearning!

God's Still Working

I have a feeling that this summer is going to be filled with some amazing things that God is going to be doing. I can feel it in my spirit even now as I am typing this blog. God is using me as a vessel; he is giving me the opportunity to do something that I did not know he could do through me. I have been given the blessing of being involved with Ringel Heights Baptist Church this summer as the interning youth pastor. All ready God has been showing me some of the amazing things that he will do this summer as long as I continue to be an open and willing vessel for him. So many emotions have gone through my head during this opportunity. There has been worry, excitement, joy, confusion, and empowerment. You know, almost a year ago I received a Word from God when I was at our Redemption Trip about how in this next year I was going to receive an opportunity to serve God at a new level, and just when I started to think that it may not happen, God delivers it too me. How cool is that? When I saw this opportunity I knew I could not miss out on this, and I could not let the gifts he has given me go to waste this summer. Ah I can't wait for all the cool things God has in store for myself and Ringel Heights this summer.

Love you guys,

Big Ron

My complicated Life

You know, I have been pondering life lately. Really examining myself. Really it's been about a lot of general things, but there has been deep thinking involved. For the record I am super blessed. Sometimes I loose site of that. I may not have everything that the world values, but I have what I value the most. I have so durn good friends, and a great group of frat brothers. I am ready to take a step forward, into what I am not exactly sure, but I know that God has some big plans for me. For some reason though my spirit has been down lately, it has not been this way for a while, so I am struggling with breaking loose of that. Usually I do not vent here, but this is a time when I really need too, I just have to get some things off of my chest. I want whoever reads this to know that I am not perfect, that my life is not perfect, and that I do make questionable decisions, and that I do have struggles. I have lived a life where I have hid this stuff behind my smile, I seems like it is so comforting for me to do this. I think I have been in a state of depression, and just refused to deal with it. But now is the time to deal with it. I don't need to put that in the back burner, but I need to address it. I will address it by buckling down in my prayer life. I am making a commitment to read the Word more. I need to get back to doing that stuff. it gets neglected because of my "busy" schedule. So I apologize to anyone who has not thought that I have been myself lately, this is why.

Love you guys

Big Ron

The Missing Part of Me

I have been struggling lately. Struggling to keep a smile on my face. I feel like a part of me is missing. Honestly it has been missing for a while, but I don't know what it is. Sometimes I just want to sleep the days a way. I want everything to be normal for once...but I realize that I don't have a normal life. I really want that spark that I have been missing; that zing that makes Big Ron who I am. I understand that it may take a little time to find that, but I really hope I find it soon. I know people can tell that something is different, and that I only because I made a decision this year to not hide behind my smile. It is definitely a tough thing to follow through with. But I am not going to give up on it.

I have not mentioned how great of a group of friends I have here at CSU. I have def. had some special nights, things I will never forget. It is nice to have friends who have helped me too get through a tough part of my life. I have had some great nights on the beach, fun times at a friends house, and for the first time being here at CSU I actually have a reason to stay on weekends. Never a dull moment between us. Thanks friends...you know who you are :)

Love you guys,

Big Ron