The Missing Part of Me

I have been struggling lately. Struggling to keep a smile on my face. I feel like a part of me is missing. Honestly it has been missing for a while, but I don't know what it is. Sometimes I just want to sleep the days a way. I want everything to be normal for once...but I realize that I don't have a normal life. I really want that spark that I have been missing; that zing that makes Big Ron who I am. I understand that it may take a little time to find that, but I really hope I find it soon. I know people can tell that something is different, and that I only because I made a decision this year to not hide behind my smile. It is definitely a tough thing to follow through with. But I am not going to give up on it.

I have not mentioned how great of a group of friends I have here at CSU. I have def. had some special nights, things I will never forget. It is nice to have friends who have helped me too get through a tough part of my life. I have had some great nights on the beach, fun times at a friends house, and for the first time being here at CSU I actually have a reason to stay on weekends. Never a dull moment between us. Thanks friends...you know who you are :)

Love you guys,

Big Ron