Decisions

You know, there are sometimes I like to think and reflect on the decisions I make in my life. I know that it is something that I should not dwell on because it can distract me from the task at hand, however we do need to do some reflecting. There have been times that I have wondered what Big Ron would have been like without Christ in my life. It's a scary thought really. Because at this point in my life and for at least 6 years before now, Christ has driven me, the desires that I have had are ones that He has for my life. So I wonder what kind of nonchristian would I have been, or how would I make the decisions that I have had to make. These are tough questions to ask myself. Really I don't want to to think of me like that. I don't think I could be as optimistic as I am. I am not the blamer type...if I do something I take responsibility for it, I man up. Would I do that if I did not have Christ in my life? who knows.

I also wonder what path I should have taken in terms of college before USC. I am pretty sure that USC was not the initial plan that God had for me in the beginning. I chose that route because I wanted to see what the world had to offer. God knew however that I would be back, so he allowed me to see what the world had, and the route changed to get to my destination. There are many Christian Universities that I could have went to instead but, I believe that now God has me where I need to be at. Now with that being said when I recognized that this is where God has called me for this season of my life He put a vision in my heart. Really He birthed in me this thing that I am supposed to do here. Let's just say that there has been some major praying about this, but right now it is like fire shut up in my bones...It is a great feeling by the way. I have always heard how God will give you a vision if you are willing to accept it, but now I actually know how it feels. I have been burdened by something God wants me to do in service to him. When I dedicated my life to God, I said that I would be willing to do what is necessary, I will obey the call that he has for my life. I have been doing that, I attended and completed pledge and I am now involved in PKP a frat that God led me too. There is something that I am supposed to do within it, although I do now know just yet, I do know that this is a group of men of God that I belong with. I have faith that the direction will be given to me when God feels it is time to reveal it. So I urge you, follow the call of God!

Love you guys,

Big Ron