Why does God have you where you are

Do you ever wonder why God has you place where you are in your life? I know that sometimes I do. I often ponder the reasons why I am in Charleston, because I know that I alone would not have made the decision to move here and change schools. God gave me just enough to come here, and I have had many words spoken over me why it is necessary for me to be here, but I do wonder when all of the promises that have been made will come through. Now I do realize that I also have to meet God somewhere in the middle. There are many times when I pray for the direction that I need to be moving in to meet God. There are so many opportunities here in Charleston, and I just hope that the path I take is the one that will lead me closest to God. When I talk with others about things that they are facing I tell them that the most important thing is to keep God first, because if you do then you will not go wrong. So this is the time when I need to take my own advice and keep God first. I have given up things that would hinder me, and also left friends behind that can slow this process down, only to still feel like I am struggling. I know in the end that it will be fine, but sometimes the process is painful. It was shown to me a couple of weeks ago that this period of my life that I am entering will bring new struggles that I have not faced to this point in my life, and that there will be great tests. Some of these things are starting to be revealed to me, but the big picture is still not there. I know that these are just stepping stones to the major test that is coming. Posting helps me a lot, it allows me to get all of these thoughts out, and helps piece them together.

I know I have to be here, but for what I am not entirely certain as of yet. I have given up things that I would have myself pursue and taken up the things that God wants me to pursue. I know that there are people who believe that I am crazy, most of them are not believers in Christ, but its okay. One day they too will realize. Tomorrow I begin the search back at my grassroots. I will be attending a Methodist church for the first time in about five years in my own free will. I have moved away from it, but I believe that God may be calling me back and maybe bring a change to the lifestyles of some people. I know that God can def. use me there; I realize this after previously thinking that he couldn't. This could be the first part of my test. I am definately not turning away from it. I will be bringing that same passion and fire that I have with me, and that may be the second part of the first test being that God needs to see that I can keep my passion and fire in the most unlikely places that I have believed that I would not be able to take it. Will this be test number one, I honestly do not know, but I will soon find out.

Love you guys,

Big Ron