It's been a whole year

It's been a year. I long and tough year, without the man I looked up to my whole life. I am talking about my grandpa. Let me be honest with you, it sucks just living with my mom and sister. I miss him so much, somone I could talk to about my problems and struggles. I often question why he had to go so soon, but I know why..thats whats weird. We actually talked about it before he died. I wish he was still here. Sometimes I feel lost spiritually, and it seems like I am alone in finding my way. It is hard especially with the role I have in my church leading a bunch of 4th 5th and 6th graders, basically as a youth pastor to them. It is hard sometimes because when i am feeling down spiritually i know that I still have to lead them in the right direction spiritually and I do not want to lead them in the wrong way. But, this program has been going great. The kids are growing so much, and it is just great being able to lead them and help them find who they are in Christ.

I often wonder what life would be like if I lived a normal one. If you know me then you def. know that I don't live a normal one. It's kinda funny really, life takes so many different turns if you are Big Ron. I have the most unique friends you could ever think of. Most of them are not Christian, but can be better friends than my Christian ones. I always wonder how great it would be if they were Chritians. We could set this town on fire for God, because they are such great people. Passionate about what they live for, not worrying about what others think of them. Recently I have gotten alot of friends that are younger than me. It's weird in a way but it has its benefits. I am able to help them through stuff that I have gone through which is a plus. I am ready to start school back, ready to leave this town. It's just crazy. When I go back though i will still be coming home to go to church but that will be the only reason really. Well Till next time my fellow readers.

Big Ron